Public letters

January 26, 2015

Dear Chuck, You are now a year away from the pain and hell that was the nightmare of losing your children. Hug them tight today. Stop whatever you are doing and do what they want. Play with them. Be with them. Never forget what it was like to be on the porch only a mile away and to be denied their smiles and laughter and presence. Be at peace. You were peaceful today. Peace, Chuck

January 2, 2015

Well, here we are again. (you totally just read that in Buck 65's voice, right?) Forgive me. So how'd it go? Did you you finish your book? How's Jessica? Still with her? How'd you do with Robyn? I hope you can remember the struggle you were having when you wrote this. I hope you can remember counting down the minutes until you had to go to sleep and dreading waking up in the morning to have to cook at that shitty restaurant in Elkwater. I hope you remember missing Jessica and Robyn so much that it hurt sometimes, and I hope you can forgive yourself for the traps you set yourself in that respect. I hope you can remember all of this so that in 2016 when you get this letter to yourself you can put into perspective what's occurred over the 365 days between the sending and receiving of it, and meditate on what you need to do to ensure this struggle doesn't happen again. Because despite what we both believe, you really are a fantastic person. You really do have the talent and passion to make it in whatever field you choose. You can change the world; you do have the power. You just need to find it. Get on the bus and write poetry. Make music. Travel. Take riding lessons like you had always planned to. Go back to school. Do something for yourself and make the next year count for something. Allen Hood can not take looking back at another cycle thinking it was a waste of his time. He doesn't deserve that. I don't think anyone does. And listen to Nick more. He loves you and wants you to be happy. All of the good things you've just told yourself are basically from him. Best of luck, and I hope 2015 has been good for you.

October 18, 2014

i love unicorns...

May 2, 2014

Hey i thin that in one month i should have been really in advacned stage for iSOS and TeezrOtherwise i just need to stop because i'm good at nothing except talking and prototyping .

March 1, 2014

Dear Leo, It was like a dream when you walked into my life. I've never been this happy

February 28, 2014

Dear Ski, I hope that when you read this letter you are a better you. I hope that all your dreams are fulfilled- that you finished your degree and got as close to upper seconds honours as you could, that you made peace with your past and forgave yourself for your mistakes in general and with men especially, that you became the Christian that you wanted to be and that you discovered your dream job. You have been so hard on yourself and I hope that now you have discovered what it truly means to love yourself. You can do it! You are so strong and you deserve to be happy. Achieve your dreams. Love always, S.

February 28, 2014

Dear Maha, So it's been a year since I've wrote this and now you're reading it. You've really helped me out the past few weeks before we had reading week and I want you to know that I'll always appreciate it and I hope we've become life long friends. You're such a laugh to be around and you know just how to raise my spirits. Horizons may have been the best decision I've made in my life so far because it not only taught me how to be more open and not be afraid to approach people, but it led me to you and I'm so happy about it. You're such great friend and know I'm always here for you. Much love, Sam Xxoo

February 28, 2014

Dear Samantha, This week has been so wonderful; you just just got an ally position with SAS, an 86 on a presentation you did while having a fever, got a 90 on your article summery, and sure why not you actually have a date tonight cause a friend just asked you out yesterday. I know the past few weeks have been a little rocky but you've gotten through it, mainly with the help of your CMST prof, Maha, and Tea. Make sure to always keep them in mind and read your warm fuzzes if you're ever down, I know that helped me out not long ago. People love seeing you smile and talk about the things that make you happy, so many people have told you how joyful you are and open to talk to and non judgemental; keep that. Sure I might not even believe it at the moment, but I'm sure trying. So hopefully by now you have and things are still going splendidly. You know you've got those exams in the bag in a month or so! Much love, Sam Xxxoo

February 28, 2014

Hei rakas, tuli tässä netissä huomattua tällainen "kirjota tulevaisuuteen"-juttu. Halusin vaan sanoa että oon sun kanssa todella onnellinen. Tiedän, että myös vuoden päästä kun tän kirjeen saat, oon edelleen sun kanssa onnellinen. Haluan kasvaa sun kanssa vanhaksi asti, nähdä meidän yhteisten lasten kasvavan ja lastenlastenkin. Sun kanssa on niin helppo olla. Ja sä oot aina mun tukena. Ja mä sun. Teen kaikkeni että olisit maailman onnellisin mies. Koska sä teet musta maailman onnellisimman naisen. Rakastan sua nyt ja aina.

February 28, 2014

Dear future me, It's February 28th February and I'm sat in my University dorm room after just letting Ben Percival in (I'm hoping you're still friends with him, he's a nice guy). You've just gone through your first heartbreak and I'm hoping you've moved on from that now because it's been a year and you should. If you have, then I'm pleased because it means you're living your life; as you should be. If you haven't, then that's okay too. Heartbreak takes a while and it's okay to love and still love. There's nothing you can do about that, it just means it will take a bit longer than we anticipated. I hope you're still friends with him and everyone from Cefn y Coed though because they're decent people and it would be a shame. Maybe you need more time than you originally thought. You should be reading this in your new flat with Llinos, Sarah, Emma and Amanda. The one above the Launderette? If you've ever had a tiff or got annoyed with any of them, remind yourself of why you chose to move in with them. You could have decided you didn't want to with any and you did for a reason - because you love them. Show them the love. Show everyone love. Show the street you walk on love and let it fill you up so it almost hurts. (Love shouldn't hurt, which is why I say almost). Buy a meal for the homeless person sitting outside Morrison's or give someone a 'you are beautiful' sticker to make their day bright. Try and do something every day because that will make you better. And if you're depression has returned, that's okay. I'm here for you - I always have and I always will be. Just like every person that's in your life. It's okay to keep battling, because it means you're a warrior. It means you can save you have battle scars and that you were victorious. If anyone judges you for them, it's down to them not understanding. It's not because you're a horrible person - and I hope you've accepted that by now - it's because you're you and you've battled a different war. Keep fighting and loving and you'll be okay. You might not be great, but it's a place to start so you can be. Healing takes time. Have patience. Breathe. Me.

February 28, 2014

Dear future me, It's February 28th February and I'm sat in my University dorm room after just letting Ben Percival in (I'm hoping you're still friends with him, he's a nice guy). You've just gone through your first heartbreak and I'm hoping you've moved on from that now because it's been a year and you should. If you have, then I'm pleased because it means you're living your life; as you should be. If you haven't, then that's okay too. Heartbreak takes a while and it's okay to love and still love. There's nothing you can do about that, it just means it will take a bit longer than we anticipated. I hope you're still friends with him and everyone from Cefn y Coed though because they're decent people and it would be a shame. Maybe you need more time than you originally thought. You should be reading this in your new flat with Llinos, Sarah, Emma and Amanda. The one above the Launderette? If you've ever had a tiff or got annoyed with any of them, remind yourself of why you chose to move in with them. You could have decided you didn't want to with any and you did for a reason - because you love them. Show them the love. Show everyone love. Show the street you walk on love and let it fill you up so it almost hurts. (Love shouldn't hurt, which is why I say almost). Buy a meal for the homeless person sitting outside Morrison's or give someone a 'you are beautiful' sticker to make their day bright. Try and do something every day because that will make you better. And if you're depression has returned, that's okay. I'm here for you - I always have and I always will be. Just like every person that's in your life. It's okay to keep battling, because it means you're a warrior. It means you can save you have battle scars and that you were victorious. If anyone judges you for them, it's down to them not understanding. It's not because you're a horrible person - and I hope you've accepted that by now - it's because you're you and you've battled a different war. Keep fighting and loving and you'll be okay. You might not be great, but it's a place to start so you can be. Healing takes time. Have patience. Breathe. Me.

February 28, 2014

Dear sister I wrote this a year ago through some website called 'futurepostbox' - it e-mails/posts a letter you write in a year. So I thought I'd try it and you were one of the people I wanted to write one to. I'm sat in my Uni dorm room on Friday 28th February half an hour before I go to give blood... Remember when we used to play granny's and motorbikes when we tried to hide from Mom instead of going to bed? They didn't like that suggestion when I made it here for a drinking game (something about it being too silly); that's us though. If I were to use a word to describe us, it would be 'silly'. There'd be a bunch of other words in there too but that's the main one I think. Part of me wishes we could go back to that time when we didn't care about anything and it was just us two making medicines in the back garden; taping our faces together until it was red; decorating Mom's hair with an infinite amount of bobbles. But a part of me doesn't. We've had to grow up so much so quickly that I sometimes forget about those moments. And I reckon you forget them too sometimes; and we should both remember them. But the reason I say I don't want to go back to those moments is because we've learnt so much that it's made us better people. True, we have things we wish we could change. But doesn't everyone? Ours are just not always visible. You are a strong, independent woman (cliché much?) and I admire you for your bravery; honesty; loyalty. I hope a year from writing this you've found something you love to do and are making something out of it. A job; college course; apprenticeship; university - they would be amazing if you'd accomplished even one of them. But so is talking to a stranger you wouldn't want to. Or answering the phone. I would be proud of you if you'd managed any of them - even getting out the door every day. I'd say prouder, but I can't be because I already am the most I can be. If people ask me about my family, the first person I'd think of is "I have a sister and she's amazing". It's okay to not always be okay. It's something being at Uni has taught me. It's how we deal with it. I've had to face fears and dark thoughts a lot more than I thought I would, albeit sometimes it's got the better of me, but I've discovered I was stronger than I thought I was. I am proud to say you're my sister. I am in awe of who you are and I love you no matter what. Rebeka. xxxxxx